She Returns

It’s been a fairly long while since I posted things on this blog. A few weeks ago in an overtired and stressed out PMSing shit fit, I decided to delete everything which in retrospect, I kind of regret but I think I have most of the posts saved for my own personal memories. I probably won’t post them again unless I get really bored one day.

The thing is, I really missed blogging. I really love writing, especially in this casual format where I can use my own particular voice. Formal writing is cool too, especially since I hope (the fingers-crossed kind of hoping) to publish or present an academic article in the nearish future but there’s something to be said for stream of consciousness reflections.

I don’t really have a theme for this post except for “Re-entering the blogging world. (Again.)” I think I just want to play a mini-version of the glad game that was so poignantly played by one Stewie Griffin and Brian the Dog. I love the glad game even if no one else wants to play it with me.

Things to be Glad About

1. Making new friends and practicing the process of making new friends. Over the past few days, I have met a few incredible people who I felt like I could really be friends with. I’ve been told it’s not very noticeable but I’m very shy with new people and super ridiculously shy with groups of people that I don’t know. Sometimes, my shyness can come off even as being arrogant or cold and that’s just all the worse for me. But I’m practicing warmth and friendliness and for a while, I didn’t think it paid off in the slightest but I am really fortunate to have found some people who are receptive to me and also, that theoretically, I might not be the cold-hearted bitch that I fear that I am. Yay. Ish. Yay for friends but not for bitchiness. That’s where the ‘ish’ comes in.

2. I found a pair of Victoria’s Secret green satin short pajamas from my sophomore year of high school (I know—it’s like 100 years ago) and they are my new favorite piece of clothing. They’re a little Hugh Hefner and I don’t look 1/100 as hot as the model I bought them off of but they make me happy and show off what little tan I have and I pretty much wear them as often as I can get them through the laundry.

3. I love my job again. Really, really love it for the most part. I forgot why it was so rewarding because the summer was so slow it was a little torturous but meeting all of the new students has invigorated me and it’s so refreshing to see all of the old ones again.

4. My little brother has been really supportive and is really generous with his time and his things when I go over to my parent’s house. He occasionally just comes out with these profound statements that surprise me with their depth but they also make me wonder why he can’t be that astute all of the time. He also is dispensing dating advice with a lavish hand. From listening to him, dating is a much simpler and less subtle process at 15 than it is at 23. His philosophy is simple--he just asks girls if they like him and if they don’t, he moves on to the next one. Ha, as if. But it’s still cute either way and I really appreciate him listening to my longwinded stories of boy hijinks. I also really like it when I can beat him at Guitar Hero.

5. Bret Michael’s Rock of Love rocks my world. I hate myself for watching it but man, I really love this show. It’s trashy and he’s kind of old and skanktastic but it’s the most entertaining thing I’ve watched all summer. I like this show more than I liked Superbad. (A post on that to come later.) It’s not my fault I have really shitty taste in television.

6. Grad school has way exceeded my expectations which I am pleasantly surprised about. After the orientation, I was downright frightened in terms of what to expect but I have three very charismatic professors, an interesting discipline, and the opportunity to fill in some holes where my CC education left off. It’s an insane relief to be back in class again. It feels like Dorothy is back in Kansas. God, I love red shoes. I also think I might have a topic for my Research Proposal of Doom. (Just kidding—it’s not filled with doom, it’s just a large undertaking and I really want to impress the prof) I have to see if it is viable or not though because it sounds really silly when I express my idea in words.

7. I bought a matching couch and loveseat! They’re pretty and girly and in good shape and as nice as the Lazy Boy recliner was, the couch combo is way better to have company over with.

I think these are a nice sampling of things that I am happy about around now. I like life a lot right now although I occasionally still grapple with difficulties but really, who doesn’t grapple a few times in their life? .