How do I not have grey hair already?

I'm not a super-fun person to hang out with right now. Like, I might officially be kind of a bummer. I think the only people who really enjoy me are my brother because I let him drive me places for his necessary driving hours and the twins because they are six and I bring them presents, usually with a pirate theme. It's just that the essence of me doesn't really resond well to change and everything is changing right now and thus, I am consumed with worries pretty constantly. Worries like these:

1. Surviving grad school and particularly impressing one JB, the world's most intimidating, intelligent and amazing professor who I made an ass out of myself in front of. Like, i need to make a ridiculously good 2nd impression and my plan for that is to stay silent for a little while till I figure out what she likes.

2. Fitting all of my shit into my car for next week. i think I have enough room but I also have more clothes than anyone should ever have, ever. And the vacuum sealed shrink bags won't stay vaccuum sealed. And I have 3 boxes that are just toiletries. (I scaled those down tonight.) I hope Klaus doesn't mind riding on the roof.

3. Resuming a healthy eating/exercise routine. I had to quit the gym because I was leaving and I miss it desperately. Exercising at home doesn't appeal nearly as much to me and thus I haven't been doing it. This makes me even more cranky. I also miss doing my own grocery shopping and cooking because I tend to eat like the people I am with and that is oh so bad for the jeans zipper. I know that I just need to be careful now but not worry about it until I have control of my life again but that doesn't sit well with me and I worry about my body constantly.

4. Throwing away something that means a lot to me. I have been clearing out my childhood bedroom and closets and stuff with a lot of sentimental value and I know a lot of it needs to go but it means things to me and so it makes it very hard. There are people I don't want to remember and so it is easy to get rid of that stuff but there are people that I really do want to remember and I worry that I will forget them without that one photo or birthday card.

5. Maintaining friendships when I am not sunshine and rainbows to be around.